Why I believe

I was not brought up in a religious background although after the death of one of my older sisters my mum 'searched for the meaning of life' and later became a Christian. I wasn't enamoured about this as she made us pray with her and I hated it. At the age of 12, following my mum's death, I became a 'rebel without a clue'. After four years with various addictions and a lot of self-harming I decided this world was not for me and took a lethal overdose. (It truly was a miracle that I lived) I did not believe in God or that He was real and if He was I hated Him anyway for allowing my mum to die, after all, she DID believe in Him! Six months after my suicide attempt I reached a place of no return. In this place I shouted at God and said if He was real to show me because I had tried everything this world had to offer and was still empty. I was overwhelmed by the 'presence' I felt and the love that seemed to just surround me all about – I discovered God was real and I became a committed Christian and have chosen to walk with God since that day.

Life as a Christian

Life as a Christian has not proved to be trouble-free but I believe God when He says, 'all things work together for good..' He has proved this time and time again in my life.

Last January, after discovering my husband was having an affair and seeing the end of our 9-year marriage, I thought my life was over. I was in a place of shattered hopes, broken dreams and empty promises.

As he walked out I watched my hopes and dreams leave with him BUT as he walked out God walked in and said 'your life is not over, trust Me, the best is yet to be...'

Here I am, less than two years on and God has given me new hopes, new dreams, new promises and I know the best is yet to be!

The new things include writing a book, recording a CD and other new ventures, which remain under wraps just now. With all these new things I would say that I am not looking to be rich or famous; it is my simple hope that if you find yourself in circumstances which you can see no way out you would find that life is not over. It is my prayer that you find eagle’s wings carrying you, as they have me. I have found that God alone is my strength and He alone can give me peace in the midst of turmoil, joy in the midst of despair and laughter through the tears.